When Self-Doubt Creeps In

WordPress.com’s Blogging: Fundamentals course really is deceptively thorough in its simplicity. They make it easy, but they also ask some hardcore, stop-and-seriously-think questions.

I thought I would expand on the course’s first assignment, “Day One: Write an Introductory Post,” by tackling this seemingly simple question posed to intrepid new bloggers:

“If you blog successfully throughout the next year, what do you hope to accomplish?”

This question has been haunting me for almost a week now. It pointed directly at some of my deepest insecurities regarding writing.

For instance, I’ve got several unfinished drafts of all sorts of things, both short form and long form, and in genres as disparate as Sci-Fi and Self-Help. It seems I’m unfocused. In reality I’m just passionate about a lot of different topics and stories, but if I can’t finish the projects that matter most to me… then why am I starting a blog?

I’ve also never truly imagined making a life out of writing until recently. I’ve taken on writing projects, for sure – and some of them quite huge – but writing everyday never seemed to be on my agenda beyond the status of hobby, or as a supportive practice to my other activities. So now that I’m making a different decision, can I really follow through with it?

I wish to be able to confidently say, “I’m a blogger,” or “I’m a writer,” and mean it with all my heart. But at the moment I still feel a little wobbly.

Will I make it?

First of all, if I blog successfully for a full year, then I’m a superstar. Even just thinking about the possibility that I might… That it is within reach! That a whole year can be done. (And I’ve done tougher things, right… like college and grown-up jobs and graduate school…)

Then Wow.

If I imagine this possibility for even just 17 seconds, as Abraham Hicks says, then the idea gathers momentum. It gains shape; it becomes more solid. If I can see it with my inner mind’s eye, and if I can feel the delights it might bring me, then the idea becomes more palpable.

I can almost touch it.

There is huge power in questions that dig into our tender spots, if we immerse ourselves in them with self-compassion, and if we consciously honor what shows up.

What this looks like for me?

If I blog successfully for a whole year…

  • I create a meaningful community of like-minded individuals.
  • I find my tribe.
  • I develop mutually uplifting relationships.
  • I instigate healing in my life and in other people’s lives.

Health is the key to everything. The body, mind and spirit must work in concert to produce the music of a life well-lived. Wellness must exist at all levels. This blog is about me coming into alignment with myself.

I believe that when one expresses one’s truth in the world, all is made well in one’s life. Isn’t it pointless to pretend to be other than as you are?

The blessings of integrity and authenticity are beyond imagination. Communally we can heal the world, if only we’re each brave enough to heal ourselves.

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Be Kind. Be Generous. Be True. And Type Away!

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